I went through a really hard time last year when Franny was diagnosed with autism. My mom got me through that period by always being there when I needed to talk, night or day, and by helping me research different autism treatments. She always took time she probably didn't have to spare, as she was a very busy woman, to listen to me as I tried to cope with the reality of autism. Up until then, it was the hardest challenge I had to face.
I've said several times that I never would have started a blog during that difficult time, because what I had to say might be too depressing. This may seem weird, but after Saturday night when my Mom had her stroke, I thought maybe I might not blog anymore for the same reason. But then I remembered that last week I told my mom how happy it made me that she reads my blog, and she laughed and jokingly replied, "Your blog is the reason I get out of bed in the morning." I know this was hyperbole, but I really appreciated the sentiment. She loved my blog, and I know she'd want me to keep it going.
For those of you who haven't heard, my mom passed away on Sunday from a massive stroke. She went peacefully and quickly. I miss her so much. It's strange to be in her house and see her laundry basket full of last week's clothes and her toothbrush next to her bathroom sink. I spoke with her three hours before it happened about summer vacation plans and plane tickets. Today we chose a cemetery and a burial plot, finished the first draft of her obituary, and looked at flowers for the casket. It's exhausting trying to make all these arrangements, and I don't even feel like I'm being much help anyway. Our family and friends are showing so much support and love to our family. They have all been so wonderful. It is so great to be here with my family. The funeral is this Friday at 11:00 AM. I feel honored that I was asked to give my mother's eulogy. I just hope that I can find the words to best celebrate her wonderful life.