Wednesday, July 18, 2007

I went through a really hard time last year when Franny was diagnosed with autism. My mom got me through that period by always being there when I needed to talk, night or day, and by helping me research different autism treatments. She always took time she probably didn't have to spare, as she was a very busy woman, to listen to me as I tried to cope with the reality of autism. Up until then, it was the hardest challenge I had to face.

I've said several times that I never would have started a blog during that difficult time, because what I had to say might be too depressing. This may seem weird, but after Saturday night when my Mom had her stroke, I thought maybe I might not blog anymore for the same reason. But then I remembered that last week I told my mom how happy it made me that she reads my blog, and she laughed and jokingly replied, "Your blog is the reason I get out of bed in the morning." I know this was hyperbole, but I really appreciated the sentiment. She loved my blog, and I know she'd want me to keep it going.

For those of you who haven't heard, my mom passed away on Sunday from a massive stroke. She went peacefully and quickly. I miss her so much. It's strange to be in her house and see her laundry basket full of last week's clothes and her toothbrush next to her bathroom sink. I spoke with her three hours before it happened about summer vacation plans and plane tickets. Today we chose a cemetery and a burial plot, finished the first draft of her obituary, and looked at flowers for the casket. It's exhausting trying to make all these arrangements, and I don't even feel like I'm being much help anyway. Our family and friends are showing so much support and love to our family. They have all been so wonderful. It is so great to be here with my family. The funeral is this Friday at 11:00 AM. I feel honored that I was asked to give my mother's eulogy. I just hope that I can find the words to best celebrate her wonderful life.

21 comments:

Anne said...

Oh Katherine, I love you, I love your mom, and I love your family. I'm thinking about you.

Jodie said...

I am so glad that you found the words to continue your blog. You and you family are such an inspiration that it would be a shame if you stopped. I know that you are feeling tons of emotions right now but don't ever feel that you are not helping. Your presence is all that is needed sometimes and your family needs you as much as you need them right now. Always remember that you are needed. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers in an extra way on Friday morning.

jayne said...

Oh, Katherine. I wish I had the words to say. I'm glad you are still blogging, it's a good outlet to have. You are amazing. I'm praying for you and your family.

Tif said...

Katherine, I am so sorry to hear your news. You are in our thoughts and prayers. If you need anything, just let me know. I am here for you however you may need me!

Jill said...

I am so sorry, I can't say that enough. Both my mom and dad have called me to ask how you are doing. Even people who have never met you (my dad) have been thinking of you and praying for your family. Of course I am praying for you as well. If there is anything I can do for your family let me know.

The Laytons said...

Oh Katherine - I am so extremely sorry for you and your family!! If there is anything I can do I would be more than willing to help. We'll be praying for you all! We love you!

Kristen said...

My family has loved your mom and your family for 25 years. I have so many memories of good times with her. Your mom is so smart and so funny. I love being around her. She's so kind, talented, generous, spiritual - a wonderful woman who raised a beautiful family. She will be missed by so many people. I will see you on Friday. With love, Kristen

Ashlie & Jonathan said...

You are amazing. We are praying for you.

DeGooyer Family said...

You all are in my thoughts and prayers. Thank you for your example of strength and faith.

Josh said...

Oh Katherine, I am so sorry!

janlee said...

wow! you are so amazing! i love you and you have always been such a wonderfully delightful, funny, witty, intelligent person and i know that it is b/c you learned many things from your great mother. you will do a wonderful job on friday no matter what b/c you love her and your family. we will be thinking of you as well and your whole family...

Sara said...

Katherine, I'm very sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you and your family.

Tisha said...

Katherine, I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in our thoughts and prayers.

Sheen said...

Oh, Katherine. I'm so sorry. I have nothing to say, but if you need an ear, I have one to lend.

Denae said...

Katherine, I too am very sorry for the loss of your mother. Don't worry, you'll do great on Friday. I am glad you're going to continue to blog knowing that your mom loved it so much. I really enjoy your blog too. Again, I am really sorry that this had to happen. Your mom looks very sweet in that picture you posted.

Erin said...

Katherine, I'm all teary after reading your post. I wish I could be more help to you right now, but atleast you know that I love you and am praying for you every day.

Beckie said...

Dear Katherine and Bobby, Cameron and I just found out about your saddness. I am so sorry sweet Katherine. I do know exactly how you feel right now and I hurt so much for you. I wish I could come over to your house, bring you flowers and hug you as you did for me after my mom passed away. How much that meant to me Katherine. You never have known how much I cherished that morning with you and reflected on the words your mom had shared with you to help me during my difficult time. I am so thankful for your dear friendship over the past 6 years. We love you and Bobby so much and we want you both to know that our hearts have mourned with yours. May you feel her near you tomorrow during the funeral. I know that she will be there. I will call you soon. Love, Beckie and Cameron

rebecca said...

I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your wonderful mother. I only got to talk to her briefly when she was in Kirksville with you, but could tell she had a gigantic beautiful spirit and know that she has carried that with her to heaven, but alot of that will stay here on earth to comfort you when you need her! I wish I could give you a huge hug right now! I love you and will keep you in my prayers!

hayley said...

Thank you for your inspiring words and sharing your thoughts. You have such a strong spirit, and a very endearing way with your words. Peace be with you and never give up:) You are truly amazing and your blog is a wonderful expression of who you are.

Eugie said...

Katherine, I know this may not be the best place to express my sympathy for your mother's passing. I am sorry to hear about her passing. I know how it is to lose someone so close to you. It's hard to lose someone that was so apart of your daily activity...like the daily phone calls and such. I promise it does get better with time...but do take your time. Our prayers go out to you and your family. Also when I was going though something similar writing was my best outlet...if you have something to say about what you or your family is going through we will all be here to read it and love you for it. Take care!

Gough Family USA said...

Katherine- you are my hero. You and your family are in our prayers.

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